Yes - I have irrefutable scientific proof. The Internet never lies.
Are we having fun yet?
Kinda. I didn't expect so many, but I'm glad I got 'em. I didn't expect some of them, either.
Are you wishing you hadn't asked us to ask you questions?
Not yet.
Why haven't you answered all our questions yet?
I had to go to work from 1:00 PM until 11 PM.
Do you hate us?
Not to my knowledge.
Is that why you aren't answering us?
Yes.
Why are you torturing us?
Spite.
How much time do you really spend considering (or thinking about) other people instead of just your own self or issues?
Believe it or not, I actually don't spend that much time pondering/obsessing over myself whatever situation I might find myself in, though I imagine it comes across that way here. Generally, I times I get really introspective or try to focus solely on thinking about myself and is when I blog, as this is usually my most thorough only self-check for the day. I still try to put others before me most of the time, including my wife and daughter. let me know if that doesn't make sense or if you guys don't buy it.
What do you want out of your life?
Tier I:
- to make myself available for God to use however He needs me
- to love and serve my wife
- to do all I can to raise my kid so that she loves God first and foremost
Tier II:
- get out of my parent's house
- to get my own piece of real estate again
- to get out of debt
Tier III:
- an M4
- new glasses
What does this blog really do for you?
It helps me sort out my thoughts and process my feelings, generally so that I can reach some sort of conclusion about whatever it is I'm having difficulty dealing with. It also lets me vent, release stress, and get rid of negative thoughts, feelings, and ideas. It also helps keep myself accountable, because it shows me a mirror of where I am emotionally (and sometimes spiritually) each time I sit down and get honest, open and real.
Do you worrying about whether someone has posted a comment?
Generally, no.
Do you feel the same about the posts that get no comment as you do about the ones that get many comments?
Comments are always welcome and are usually nice to get, but I don't obsess over it. I tend to write for myself, whether or not anybody comments is beyond my control.
Why continually struggle with the movie theater if it's paying just about as well as the drug test company? As in, not well at all if you can't make your bills.
To my way of thinking, I'm having to start off at the bottom and work my way up again. There is a definite career path here, but evidently it takes a little while to get it. I'm looking at long-term income potential, even though the short-term income sucks to get there. I could probably take a job that pays more, but I might not have anywhere to go from there - make sense? I need to have a job I can move up in, and the theater meets that criteria, even if the initial pay is low, and I'm willing to endure low pay IF it means that I can move up eventually. By the time I left (got laid off) the call center job, I had nearly doubled my income, but it took four years to get there. I've only been here a few months so far, but I am making measurable progressions towards my goal, which is "to make enough money to survive."
Is it just a comfort zone thing?
Not so much - it was more the first thing I could grab when the last bar I was at closed, and I know it was a job I had a fairly good possibility of getting. I'd be very willing to work another gig more out of my comfort zone if the right possibility came along and the pay was right.
....bothers the stew out of you to work managing little suburban kids
Yes and No. There are a few kids there that are wonderful, and that I feel a bit fatherly (or big brother-ish) towards; kids with crummy home lives or in the middle of making bad decisions, and I sometimes lend an ear to them or offer advice if they ask. I don't mean that in a prideful way, though I know it sounds that way. I've bonded pretty well to some of these kids, and they deserve to know that somebody cares about them, even if it's only their assistant manager.
You're clearly qualified for a bunch of other things.
Yeah, but finding these jobs are substantially more difficult then they used to be. I don't have the professional network I once had, and if can't afford to start over someplace else or to transfer to a dead-end gig. Temp agencies have failed me in the past, as have corporate recruiters, job fairs, and internet job hunting. I should also probably mention that the job market in general is kind of weak at the moment, and is flush more overqualified people than I.
I also have a seven-year stint of self-employment, which generally equals "unemployed" when it comes to applying for many other jobs. Ostensibly, if I were really that good at being self employed, I wouldn't have to leave it to find another job, which must mean I'm really not good enough to work at their place. I also lack a bachelor's degree, or even an associates.
I can't help but think there are other jobs out there that pay better.
Of this I have no doubt. However,
1) finding said job
2) beating all the other applicants that are also applying
3) knowing the right person at the right time
4) being a job that's a good match for what I need that will
A) hire me
B) enough to live on and/or
C) contain a long-term career path that beats what I'm on
Then I'm all in. I know it sounds like a list of excuses, but it's what the reality of my situation is. I'm willign to do the work, but I have to do my best to find something that will meet my family's physical needs, as I'm a bit long in the tooth for an excessive amount of job hopping.
On another note, I start a new bouncer job on Wednesday, and I've never been less excited.
I hope this all made some sense. If I need to clarify anything, or if you guys have more questions, fire away.
One more thing - if you had me as a link on your blog but deleted it when I switched, feel free to put this one back on. Thanks!
4 comments:
You know how they figured out the cat thing?
It was what they found at the core of the alien ship that crashed in Roswell back in the 1940's.
Seems that craft had a defective cat or poorly buttered toast or something - so it crashed. (Later it was learned that the aliens had mistakenly used some "I can't believe it's not butter" spread by accident - thereby clearing the reputation of said cat - who, by the way, was named Glecksporphiklokula, which in the Recticulan alien language, roughly translates into English as "Mittens").
20-some odd years later, an overly caffeinated egghead at NASA eventually hit upon the idea to swap into the dismantled alien engine a specially trained Navy Seal Cat equipped with toast that had been coated with real butter and - tada - we landed a man on the moon using spacecraft with computers that had approximately the same computational power as a modern day digital watch.
There's your pseudoscience, psuedohistory lesson for today.
Good to break from the levity occasionally and interject some solid educational material into blogs from time to time.
For the children.
Steven, you had me laughing before I had my first cup of coffee. That's hard to do.
Ian, very good and thoughtful answers (I especially like your first three answers to what do you want out of life) I do not think many people would open themselves up the way you have.
Why not go back and get your degree or an associates to make yourself more marketable?? Have you looked into how much financial aide you would be able to receive??
The best piece of advice we ever receieved when paying off debt was to start with the smallest first... In other words, continue making all your payments on the bills that are required but put any extra toward the smallest bill first, pay that one off and then tackle the next. It has given us a great since of accomplishment because we can see things being taken of. It was easier to skip that $20 eating out expense because we could see the balance going down.
Ok, so, I have a question. You said this:
Tier I:
- to make myself available for God to use however He needs me
- to love and serve my wife
- to do all I can to raise my kid so that she loves God first and foremost
How do you plan on accomplishing any of that without reading/studying the Bible?
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