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Today we went biking. It was a five-mile trip to Sonic in 90+ degree heat. Our daughter managed to go the entire way successfully, though with a bit of whining, one rather fantastic crash that vaulted her over the handlebars (she ended up tumbling - uninjured, mind you - into some rather tall - and fairly soft- weeds) and one small collision with a tree. Overall, she did great job. After the ride we called Toni's brother Micheal to come and pick us up at Sonic, as we figured that none of us had the energy to cycle back - including me. Afterwards, we came home, changed clothes and went swimming.

After a pizza, our kiddo went to bad and Toni and I watched "UHF".

SUPPLIES!*

*not funny if you haven't seen "UHF"

I haven't called my cousin Steven to fix the computer yet. I mean, I did, and I was supposed to call him back several days ago and go over there and play a zombie video game with him but I haven't done it. This has been a lousy week to try to do anything other than work and spend time with my kiddo, and when I have the opportunity to spend time with her I tend to shut everything (and everyone) else out, and everything that's not her takes a massive second seat. I've been told it's over-reacting, but to my way of thinking, I lost a lot of time with her in the divorce. I don't get to see her every single day and tuck her into bed every night, and I try to squeeze every second I can get out of my time with her, even if other folks get shorted a little.

Unfortunately, that's not all of the story. My cousin Steven's wife and my wife had a pretty good disagreement several months ago, and we're all kind of just now starting to be cool with each other again, so I feel doubly bad about flaking out on him.

You know what, though? I have a huge track record of flaking out. It's been a pretty terrible problem I've had. I've flaked out on a lot of stuff, man. Paintball games. Dates. Commitments. Family events. You name it - I've probably not shown up to it. Sometimes it's really not my fault, but 99% of the time it is/was. I'm pretty sensitive about it now, and (now) it really bothers me when I do it, because I know deep down it's taking advantage of other's grace, patience and goodwill. It's pretty self centered and exploitative, I know. It's a pretty crappy thing to do, too. Ugh.

Of course, it would be easiest to stand up, man up and actually cal the guy, because all in all he's a laid-back cat. But truth be told, I'm being a total puss about it.

And it's another crappy pattern I have to break. Eventually, I'll run out of bad habits to break, right?

Aside form that, nothing much interesting today. I'm gonna smoke my pipe tomorrow. Oh - and I'm going to start wearing a bow tie at work. Probably a white one.

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